a day at home.

Today my parents. said i woke up "too" late it was only 7:40. i could have showered and gotten dressed in less than 30 minutes. but the best answer for them was for me to stay home and do nothing but blog all morning and insta. i have not problem with that but school is just a killa. miss one day of school and hell in every class we do the most important things. theres an assembly or theres a lock down. >>

its OFFICIAL!

washington, here I come!!!!!

on December 20th this nig will be on an 8:00 plane ride to washington!!

this is much so a very needed trip!!!to just get away from all of the non sense in school and out of it. mostly the ghetto asses that "bully" me and sadly go to my school. anyways that's a different story to be telling on a different post. 

this trip is pretty much a family reunion. we are all gathering to visit my very sick grandpa which has colon cancer and an other sickness i don't know the name of. we are all spending Christmas together. Which might be my grandpas last {i hope not} it's sad knowing that your grandpa is at the urge of dying. the day i found out that this Christmas might be his last. i could not help but cry. my sister that day called my grandpa as they had there conversation I heard "las familias son eternas" meaning "families are eternal" once she said that I completely cried my eyes out. such a young girl barely baptized having such wise words. my grandpa every year when all of his grand children were gathered he would ALWAYS dress up as Santa. knowing that in a year or two he won't be there to do it anymore, makes me want to cry. my grandpa was the giving old man that would always want to serve. always involved in church activities. my grandpa when i was young he was never the nicest but now that he's older and had more experience with little kids he's now the nicest man I know. him being so involved in the church makes me want to force myself to actually open my personal progress and try finishing or start a value. a month ago my mom posted a video on his Facebook wall which was the song "what a wonderful world" by Louie Armstrong ft Kenny G on the video she posted "this reminds us of you" (my grandpa). my mom and I were at the mall at the moment. she told me that he commented saying "thank you. i love this song and i love that it reminds you of me. i would like it if you guys played this song when I leave this earth at my funeral" once my mom told me i cried like no one was watching. at the moment I really didn't care who was watching. i hope and pray that him leaving this earth isn't going to be anytime soon. i will miss that man so much. 

{specially the duck noise he'd make. *quack quack*}

love you grandpa.
see you in december.

x- connie.

How does this work?

this blog will be a start of something new i have never been good at anything that involves writing. this blog i started was so i can have some place where i can eventually read in the future. that's if i dont forget my password, if i do then i did this for no reason. just kidding. i also did this so i can type down EVERYTHING i might have going on in my mind. or just anything i want to get off my chest. like now i have many things running thru my mind like "does my grandpa really have cancer?" "what am i going to wear tomorrow?" "why do i feel so hated?" "why do i miss someone that could care less about me?" these are just some of my many "issues" i have going thru my head. tomorrow will be my first "official" post.

the ADVENTURE begins.

x-Connie