As we get older

i feel like as we start getting older things just become less important. For example Birthdays!! In my case I haven't celebrated my birthday in like 2 years. Yes we go out and go to our favorite food place. This year will just be slightly different, Ill be in youth conference celebrating it with my fellow Mormons. 17. Then again its not like I was going to throw a HUGE party. So I guess its chill.

So birthdays... my birthday is June 27 I'm turning 17. 1 year closer to death.... terrifying. Ever wonder about that? I do.... ALL the time.

Yesterday my homie friend came over and made a lovely mess in my room, since I wasn't going to be here she came and celebrated my birthday early with me! it was a good time!

 

Well sorry im quite the boring blogger but its fine with me. Never know what to say.... not creative.


 xoxo
connie

Late nights.

Late night listening to chill tunes. A thousand thoughts running thru my mind. Thinking about the future, going over the past. Don't you ever think how things would be if you would've done something different? I think of it all the time. Like what if I still lived in Provo or in Florida. How different would my life have been? Or from the small things like what if I would have made a left turn instead if a right turn? You'll never know cause instead of making a left turn you made a right turn, and you can't go back. Live for now. 

Here's a tune you have to listen too if you yet haven't listened to it. My all time fav "Free fallin'" by John Mayer. It's literally my go to song. Never will it ever get old. It's chill

Did I mention. I'm finally home from florida. It was a great trip spending every second with my gramps. It was bittersweet. 

This place was beyond beautiful. 

"Gonna leave this world for a while"

Till later dewss. 

xo

connie

Daddy

Happy Father's Day to my Daddy! I love that man to bits and pieces. He's the only person that I can tell anything to, without being yeld at or being misunderstand. I'm so grateful for him. So many sacrifices, and hard work. Ever since my Asian days we've been best friends. I was the first born since than I've been a daddys girl. He is seriously the funniest human I know! He says the dumbest things that make my eyes water of laughter! Even though my dads laugh is loud and obnoxious! That just makes what ever he said ten times funnier! 

I sometimes do/say things that just slip, but I can't take it back. In the end we always get over it. 

Today I didn't get to spend Father's Day with him (Miami trip) It feels lonely. I watched how my cousins hugging their dad, I was just thinking how I wish I could  hug him. Than I thought I should just be grateful that I have a dad. Others might not have one, or maybe they have a dad but he has passed or whatever it is. Be grateful others might not have what you have. Appreciate, respect, love, care for your dad. Let him know you love him. Actually let everybody know you care for them, family, friends, neighbors etc. I know for a fact it can put a smile on their faces. 

My main man.

My bestfriend.

Love you daddy,

Miss you!

Ofa atu 

connie

Buggy...

Since you don't have your cell I dunno how to communicate with you! 

So Call me? Tweet me? DM me? Facebook me? Message me on MySpace? Vine me? Comment below?

Just hook me up! 

sorry no point in this blog.

connie

Broken heart

This morning as my grandparents and I were eating breakfast. My grandpa talks to me about how one of his daughters, and how his feelings are hurt that she doesn't come over or even talk to them. After talking about the subject a bit. He talks about how he has colon cancer. He told me how last night his bag popped (he has a bag that hangs by his colon and instead of going number 2 in the toilet, he has the bag were number 2 goes to non stop) so he was saying how his bag broke last night and said how he was crying. Then my grandpa started crying, my heart tore. He try's so hard to always keep a smile on his face and just fight thru it, but this morning he just couldn't hold it in any longer. He's one tough cookie. Love my gramps. 

Also, i think im sunburned, but on the brightside my day consisted of soaking the Miami sun on da beach. 

We lost. It was quite a close game. Heat nation. 

Toodles 

Ofa atu

connie

The barn

To start off my night my main guy came and picked me up. Went on a chill long drive to a look out. SO perf. Just sat in the car looking over the view and just chatting it up. Than we were on the road again. ended up driving to "The Barn" Sounds sketchy? Yea it was too sketchy!  As my boo thang and I roll up. Everything around it is pretty much demolished, other than 2 hollow circular buildings (dont know what it's called) and the barn! So we pull up to it, graffiti all over. Guess what they all said? All of them had to do with cats. "Cat walk" supposably there's like a whole bunch of dead cats, but I saw ZERO. Bummer huh? Just kidding id die if I saw a dead kitty. So we explore the place, and there's this certain area that just REAKED smelled so bad, him and I thought there was dead cats but then again thought wrong!! So on this little adventure lets say I was  "the nosy girl" from all the scary movies! As much as I hate being scared, I love the rush, and simply exploring! It's a love hate thing! As I wanted to go explore more, the nug was scared to come across a dead cat, but I forced him to come anyway. (Didn't see anything) So we kept going on and heard cats meowing. We went to the hollow thingys and he stayed behind. I take out my handy flash light on my phone, to see what was inside. During this whole experience I was trying to play it cool, like yea I can totally go into the thing by myself, no biggie! I quickly run across and look inside, no dead anything. But what I did see was illuminati stuff, that scares me the most. Just brushed it off and kept walkin'. Here it is we approach the barn. Once again I had to act all chill and go in first! Let me tell you the inside was so RAD. I fell in love! Could take a real sick photoshoot there! (If anybody wanted one) The place was spacey and empty, graffiti inside and all. Too sick? Yea thought so! So him and I finish exploring the place and since it was by the lake, why not go to the lake??  we walk up, I was in front I thought the ground was solid, but I end up getting one foot stuck in mud. The shoes I was happening to be wearing were white chucks..... way to go. its okay that's the point of white chucks getting them dirty. Right? That was that. we left cause im the girl that has the curfew. All the way home we just fast and furious. Which means, F the Police. Good way to start off the SUMMER!

 

 

2 days till LIFT off.

 

So that's all.

 

sorry my posts are WAY lameoooo!

 

 

Till next time.

 

Ofa atu

 

 

 

connie