You know that feeling where you let someone you actually truly cared about go, but you only realizing that once they are gone? Yea well a couple of months ago I realized that I let go of a guy who honestly was the funniest/sweetest/kindest/caring guy I've met. He was always knew how to put a smile on my face. Then I let him go. Wanna know why? Well cause I didn't want to kiss him. I told him "if we ever get together i honestly think it'll go no where" As I read that I feel like a total brat. This guy at the moment said "me knowing a girl over one year and knowing you for only a couple of weeks I chose you cause I thought it was going to be different" that just tore my heart. I tell myself "How could I let a guy like that that go?" but I did. If I could take all of that back I would in an instant. I apologize.
This guy was the closest to boyfriend I have ever had. Me personally, I was never the girl that was all with that dating/boyfriend thing. I'd just see my friends in relationships, and really never caught my attention.
Now just a week ago I realize how much I miss him. How much I miss those sweet ol' texts, and long phone calls. Seeing him walk around school, making eye contact makes me miss him just a whole lot more. When the song that he'd sing in the car comes on. Re reading our old conversations "good morning beautiful" dang how I miss that.
It's true "you don't know what you have til it's gone."
I truly miss you.
I'm sorry.
Bye for now.
Ofa atu
xo connie
